PretendPretend I killed YouPretend I walked awayPretend I hated YouAnd cursed you every dayPretend I hated Your TruthYour Light, and Your LovePretend I hated everything You gave meAll Your gracious gifts from abovePretend I left Your armsSo I could follow the wolvesPretend I laughed at You when you called my namePretend I walked as far away as I couldSo I could carry my own blameSmiling all the wayBut then
Pretend I was brokenIn the fierceness of the stormPretend I had killed myselfWith the pleasure I sought so hardPretend the world was not enoughEven though I'd given myself to itPretend I hated You stillBecause I blamed You for my fallPretend I crucified You over and overBecause I blamed you for it allPretend
Pretend I was on my kneesTears in my eyesPretend my face was in my handsAnd I couldn't help but cryPretend I realized nowThat all along I loved youPretend I always knewPretend I looked at your bodyAnd pretend I regretted what I had saidPreten
Nobody HearsNobody hearsI am screaming,In the depths of my mind,But nobody hearsI have feelings,Trapped, kept inside,But nobody caresAll I receive,For my efforts,Are staresMy voice is gone,From all my screaming,That nobody heardMy throat is raw,From all the words,This is not what I deserve,But nobody caresI don't want to give you my pain,I only want to shareI have started believing,That I am unlovedI can't see it any other wayI'm giving in to my fears,Because nobody hearsThis has been going on for years,For as long as I can rememberYes, I am aware,That nobody caresI am ending,My pathetic attempts,At trustI am sending,A message to all those I must,And I hope that your understanding,Is so very clearI have done all of this,Because nobody hearsjlp September 27, 2008-Revised march 23, 2010
Razorblade RomanceI hate you,I slice.I love you,I cut twice.Deeper, deeper,I have to forget you.Deeper, deeper,right on through.I don't love you,But, I don't hate you though.I'm so confused.I don't fucking know!So I'll cut myself,until I figure this out.I'll cut, I'll scream,I'll cry, I'll shout...I hate you with the passion,I love you to death.You are worth my blood,You're not worth my breath.I'm so confused,all this over love...You make me feel like a crow,but, then I feel like a dove.So I'll cut until it goes away,cause I will not love you.I'll cut until it goes awaycause I don't know what else to do.I would rather cut myself and bleed to death,then love you at all.But, I would rather cut and bleed,then let you take the fall.So now I have found myself,Frozen in this deathly trance.Because I'm hopelessly stuck,in this razorblade-Romance.